Friday, January 28, 2011


So, it's the weekend...I have no plans...I have heard it might rain??  I'm gonna have to check out the Weather channel.
If it doesn't rain, I get to wash clothes...I know, exciting, right??
I'm also thinking of doing a thrift shop run...I would love to do an art journal out of an old book...
see what kind of treasures I can find...
I LOVE thrift shops!!
We used to have an awesome one here in Riverside, but they closed down...
there are others, buy they're not as good, lol...

Also wanted to post some photos. 
I finished a lot of the creative work of Soul Restoration and thought I would share some of the pages.
This is an awesome course...Melody is offering another session in April, I believe...
If you feel the need to find the REAL on the badge and check it out!!
You do not have to be crafty...all of these creative projects can be done very simply.

This is a Truth Card...when I am feeling down or discouraged, these are to remind us we are loved.
This is another Truth Card
This is my Truth Teller...that little voice that knows whats wrong and right
in our lives...we need to listen more.
These are the qualities of my Truth Teller...I have chosen my Mother to be my Truth Teller.
That is the person who knows you the most, loves you the most, and only wants
what is best for you.  I can hear my Mom telling these things to me...

So that's it for now...Today was my sister's 39th birthday...I know they are having a celebration in Heaven!!
I am working on a art journal page for her...hopefully I'll have it done by Monday!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Still here...

Just a quick note to say I'm still here...just a lot of life right now going on...trying to finish up on the house in fullerton...paperwork and we can transfer title to Scott and up here in my little disaster of a house...working on Soul glad I am taking this class...I'll be back with a new post and pictures soon!!

Saturday, January 15, 2011


I don't know why, but i am feeling very alone tonight.  Maybe because when I felt like this before, I could call my Mom and she would get me through it. 
I wish I had some really good close friends.
I have one...and as much as I love her, sometimes it's not enough. 
Sometimes I feel like we are very far apart in the way we see life and things in general.  She is also very "me" oriented sometimes, I don't think she means it, but sometimes, it's annoying.
Sometimes I want people to think about me, without having to tell them.
I don't know...sometimes I'm pretty sure I'm losing it...

Thursday, January 13, 2011


My journal came yesterday from Amazon and it NOTHING like I thought it was.  I went back and looked at the description and the picture they show is not what I got.  They told me to send it back and they'll pay shipping.  I have decided to just use a spiral notebook I have here at the house.  I was thinking about it and I am REALLY new to art journaling.  I think I will be more comfortable just writing out the prompts and my responses and not worry about using paints and things.  If I want to decorate the pages, I can use colored pencils or markers or stickers or whatever!!  It is all good.
I think I was making such a big deal out of the journal because I was scared to start...after all, that is the meat of the project...getting inside your head and your heart and fixing all the negative thoughts.  It terrifies me!!!   I know it must be I will suck it up and I commit to writing 2 journaling prompts tonight before I go to bed...

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

My journal turns out I can share some pictures about my Soul Restoration journal. 
This is the cover of my journal.  I wanted something simple that i wouldn't have to worry about coming off, so I remembered this little bird from Donna Downey that I ordered like 2 years ago.  It is a minor miracle that I remembered where it was in the desk.

I am enjoying the class so far.  The general jist is to get rid of all the crap in your head that brings you down.  Melody is very clear in her presentations and so far I have understood how to do everything we need to do. 
I haven't done any of the writing in my personal journal's not here yet.  It is supposed to be delivered today...but it's almost 5 pm and nothing yet. 

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Creative Every Day

Here is my creative every day journal page for this One Little Word for 2011 is BELIEVE. 
I journaled about the things I need to believe about myself...
I really like the way this one turned out...
I used a watercolor wash of red and purple for a background.  I found  stamp at Mike's with my word on it and stamped it using acrylic paint.  Used the same paint with a stencil for the top of the page.  My girl is from a Papyrus Card.  I used white gel pens and sharpie pens for the doodles and writing. 
I have decided to probably do one project a week.  It takes me 2-3 days to do a journal page so I can get at least one page done...

As for Soul Restoration...I will not be sharing a lot of pictures and info here after all.  A lot of the information is copywrited and after watching a couple of the videos it has been mentioned and I am seeing the truth to the fact that this information is very personal.  It is for me to learn and grow from and that is a private matter...between me and me...

Today is the day...

Today is the start of Soul Restoration.  I am so excited to start!!  I got my login info but I'm going to wait just a little before I check out the site...I'm sure there was a big rush of people logging in at 11:11 am...don't want to crash the site,lol...
I also realized that I forgot to buy the index cards...silly me.  I'm gonna scrounge around here and see what I can find to use as a replacement...I have so much stuff there has to be something I can use, lol.
I went to Michaels yesterday and bought a few more supplies...a couple more bottles of paint, some brushes, some embellishments, some white sharpie paint pens for journaling. 
I'll be back after I check out the site and let you know how it is going...

Friday, January 07, 2011

Restoring my soul...

Starting on January 11th...I will participating in an online class called
It is taught by Melody Ross from Brave Girls.
I am soo excited for this to start.  I have already met some wonderful women who will also be taking the class and my wonderfully talented friend, Bonnie Rose is also taking it.
The main reason I signed up was the promise to find myself again.
We are all defined by our circumstances.  As women we are "wife, mother, daughter, sister, boss, employee,married, widowed, divorced, etc."
I have been all of these things. (except the last two...)
Now I am" in mourning. "
My soul is tired of this.  I have been "in mourning" for 4 years.
Some people think that i am not giving my Daddy the respect he desrves because I am ready to move on and it has only been 6 months since he passed.
I have NOTHING but respect for my Father.  
I feel like I can move on because I know he is happy again,  he is with my sister and my Mother and his mother.
The year and a half that he was here without my mother was soo terribly hard on him.   He had lost his soulmate, his heart, his reason for living.  I understand that.
They are together and it is time for me to move on.
My Mother would LOVE that I am taking this course.  She always supported us in any artistic endevour (sp) we undertook.  My Mother was great at stuff like that.  She could sew, paint, knit, crochet, quilt, and loved plactic canvas.  She taught me how to embroider and cross stich.
I love all the labels I have...Wife, Mother, Daughter, Sisiter...
I just want to add another one...

Wednesday, January 05, 2011


A lot of people do this thing where they pick a word and use it as their MANTRA all through the new year.  I had heard of this, but never practiced it. 
This year I wanted to try it.
I played with Authentic...meaning I wanted to lead an AUTHENTIC life, being true to who I really am.
The trouble with that one is...I don't KNOW who I am right now...
Then I tried in TO LIVE.
I have been in mourning for so long, I felt like I wasn't really living anymore.
But, it just didn't seem to flow very well.
The word that keeps coming to mind is
I want to believe so many things...I NEED to believe so many things.
1) My Angel family are togother and happy
2) God has a purpose...even if I can't see it.
3)I CAN get my life back to some semblence of normal.
4)I have a purpose...even if I can't see it.
5) There IS light at the end of this tunnel.
So my word is BELIEVE.

The power of music

I have new music on the blog...I LOVE music.  I can listen to almost anything, my tastes are very ecclectic.  I love 70's (my decade, lol), love 80's, love old country, just everything.  On my ipod I have so many different artists:Johnny Cash, ELO, Seether, Glen Miller, Justin Timberlake, Merle Haggard, Pink, Kelly Clarkson, Journey, STYX, INXS, Glen Cambell, AC/ many others...I love that can make me move and scream at the top of my lungs.  I love country...where I can sing and cry a little.  I love rap...where I can just laugh cause I can't keep up with the words.  I love big bands where I can just listen and imagine another world.  What I love the most are the 80's arena bands.  Especially STYX!!!  God, I played Cornerstone and Paradise Theater until the grooves on the records were run down.  (YES...I said RECORDS!!!)
When I start looking for music to download, I always think of STYX.  When Paradise Theater came out, I was starting my first year of high school.  At the 1st pep rally, the cheerleaders danced to Best Of Times.  I can't tell you how much I loved this abulm.  My sister, Denise was about 8 at the time.  She HATED this abulm.  We had to share a bedroom and since I was the oldest, the record player was MY possesion.  I played this record 10 times a night.  When my parents weren't home??  FULL BLAST!  Let's just say that we fought about that record all the time.  She even tried to throw it away one time...
Fast-forward about 15 years.  I was at Fullerton spending a Sunday afternoon visiting and my Mom decided she wanted some KFC.  Denise and myself volunteered to go get it and we went in her van.  We are driving down the street and I start looking at her cd collection.  She had the usual stuff that she liked, some rap, some christian rock, a couple of movie soundtracks...and there in the very back of the cd wallet...Paradise Theater by STYX!!!  I couldn't believe it.  When I asked her about it, she said simply,"I grew to like it because you liked it so much..."  Believe it or not, that is one of my best memories of us.  It amazed me that I had influenced her taste in music in some small way.  When she passed, that was one of things I had to have, her cd of Paradise Theater.  When I play it now, I feel a special connection to her.  That is the power of music.  It transforms you to another time or place, bringing back memories that are so special.

Monday, January 03, 2011

Creative Every Day

So the start of the new year has been a crazy one!!  This weekend was very hectic, but now Monday has returned and so has the routine...

Here are the pics for Creative Every Day...
This is Jan. 1st.  I did a background of watercolors, used some white gesso to make a pattern and added a graphic from The Graphic's Fairy website.  Had to stop there to let everything dry.
This was how I finished it on Jan. 2nd.  Wrote down my commitments for this year...and added some color to some of the pattern.  I also Mod Podged the graphic down.

In all honesty, I'm not really happy with it, but it's because to me, it looks like a kid could have done it.
Then I remember, I have only been using some of these tecniques for a very short time, less than 2 in a way, I am a kid when it comes to this. 
The journal is to practce in and learn, so I guess it's OK.
I also do most of my painting late at night, so I might get a bit sloppy at times...

Saturday, January 01, 2011

A new year...

Just want to wish all my peeps a happy new year!!!
I should have pics tomorrow of my 1st art journal everyday and creative everyday entry. 
(just waiting for it to dry...)


This year I want to create more art. Art journaling, watercolors, and some canvas. I need to just let myself go and DO IT!! I get stuck on how should it look or it won’t be good enough. I need to gag my inner critic and just start creating.  That is one of the reasons I joined a couple of challenges.  To get me into action.  I know that not everything i do is gonna be a masterpiece, but nothing will be if I don't JUST DO IT!!