This little meme was shared on the blog of my very talented friend, BonnieRose, http://alifeunrehearsed2.blogspot.com/. She invited her readers to participate and share it so I thought I would...it is very thought provoking...thanks Bonnie!!!
This is me.
i am --a little sad and a little relieved that the work on my parents house is almost done. I won't be truly able to move on until we sell it.
i think --that I took a lot of things for granted and I should be more appreciative of the good things in my life.
i know --that God has a plan...I just have to be patient.
i want --a house by the beach with a little glass walled garden room to read and create in and lots of open windows to let the sweet smell and warm breezes in.
i have --too many insecurities, too many self doubts, too many negative people in my life.
i dislike --people who are mean and rude. Too many people have forgotten what compassion is.
i miss --My family...I know they're together, but I'm jealous...I want them here with me.
i fear --Noone will truly understand me.
i feel --sad a lot...
i hear --if I'm really quite and concentrate, my Mother's laugh...it was a beautiful sound full of life and joy.
i smell --apple cinnamon candles...which I LOVE!!
i crave -- chocolate...ALL THE TIME!!
i usually --give into the chocolate craving and then beat myself up about it...
i search --for the meaning to my life...why am I here?? What is my purpose?? You'd think at 45 I'd have a clue, but you'd be wrong.
i wonder --What kind of woman will my Granddaughter turn out to be and will I live to see it?
i regret --letting work get in the way of my family relationships and the time that was wasted.
i love --baby kisses and hugs, sunflowers, kittens, the smell of the outside after it rains.
i care --if people don't like me.
i am always --on a freaking diet!!!
i worry --that I've let my health get too bad and I won't be healthy again.
i remember --all the good times I had as a child, as a teenager and as a young Mother.
i have --unlimited growth opportunities if I make the effort.
i dance --NEVER...I am SOO un-coordinated!
i sing --because I LOVE it!! Music is like food to me.
i don't always --fight for what I know is right...I need to stop that.
i argue--only when I am pushed to the breaking point.
i write --not enough. I love to write, but that is one of the things that gets neglected.
i lose --interest in things pretty quickly. I think I have adult adhd.
i wish --that people would realize how short time with our loved ones is and not sqander that precious time on petty arguments and fights.
i listen --to my ipod all the time...it goes where I go...
i don't understand why --they can't make a candy out of broccoli but that tastes like chocolate fudge...
i can usually be found --in the computer room or in my bedroom
i am scared. of dying too soon.
i need --someone to listen and not judge me
i forget--sometimes that fat people are supposed to be funny so when I get serious or sad, some people don't know how to react to me...
i am happy --when I am around my family and friends...
I would also like to invite you to participate in this little survey. Not so much for public view, although I would love to read it, but privately, just to get a handle on where you are...right this minute.