Saturday, December 26, 2009

Rosie's first Christmas...


Christmas was pretty good this year. I missed my mom and Denise a lot...cooking in Mom's kitchen without her is really weird! I just don't know if I will ever really like the holiday season again. It was so much my Mom's favorite time of year and my parents made it so special for us. I can't get used to the fact that they aren't here with us.
So anyway...our plans got all turned around this year. I won't go into detail, but nothing happened the way it was supposed to, but it turned out OK. I think that my problem is I want the day to flow like it always did, and with so many splits to the family now, it is just impossible. I've decided that next year, I am only going to make plans to see my granddaughter and my Dad. Everybody else can kiss my butt!! LOL!!!
The baby learned to open gifts, and was fasinated by the process. She wasn't really too interested in the presents, but liked pulling the paper off. I didn't go too crazy on the presents, although I did buy her a winnie the pooh bear and a snow white bear. They were soo cute!!
I didn't do to bad myself...my son and dil gave me an i-pod touch, which I have salivated over for months!!! My i-pod is so old! I also got a george foreman grill and new pots and pans, so no excuses on not being able to make healthy dinners, lol. My cousin gave me a "Grandma" plaque which is really cute and I also got a silver bracelet that has roses on it.
We went to Fullerton to see my Dad and have dinner with him, like I said, it is weird to be in the house on Christmas without my Mom. He didn't want to decorate or anything, so none of her Christmas stuff was out. He said maybe next year. Since that is what he said last year, I have a feeling that those days are over. I know it is harder on him than he admits to me.
So that was it. We were home by 8 and I was glad. I am so over trying to do too much on Christmas. This year taught me a valuable lesson on taking time for what is important and letting the rest go.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Christmas...

This is the Grandprincess's official Christmas picture. I love it. Love the dress, her smile, everything. My son's first picture you can totally tell he was screaming his head off 10 seconds before they took the picture. I have taken so many pictures of her, I think she almost knows to pose now, LOL...

So, I guess I wasn't very good about blogging every day. I suck...but there are days where there is really nothing new to report, lol. I was able to scratch somethings off my to do list. I made my scrapbook that will be a present. I am officially done shopping. Hubby dragged me to Walmart on Saturday, but now I am REALLY done!! I was so proud of the fact that I hadn't gone to walmart for any of my shopping, and that's where he wants to go...everytime I drag myself there, I hate it more and more. Rude people, rude staff, things just thrown where ever, and I swear they truck in random children just to have them clog up every isle by just standing there. (Bah humbug~!!~)

Now comes the job of wrapping. I swear we said we were gonna cut back this year, but I have presents in every room of the house. And of course, I didn't go overboard with Rosie!!! Oh well. Once I start, I'll get in the spirit of it. I'm hoping that I can do the wrapping today and tomorrow, Clean on Wed., and make the tamales and bake Thursday. So, if I don't blog again till after Christmas, I am really busy...

Hope everyone has a very special Holiday!!!

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Xmas decorations

Almost forgot to write today. My life really is boring...today we got down the xmas decorations...tomorrow, if the baby comes over it will be late aternoon, so in the morning I am going to deep clean the front room and start putting up some of the decorations. First, I'm going to sleep in, lol...I have missed that so much. I like getting up at 6:45, it is good practice for when I go back to work, if I can't get a night position, but I really miss sleeping in...

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Quick

Just a very quick post...it is so cold in the computer room I can't stand it!!! Got started on the Christmas cards...I'm excited. I'll do the ones that won't include a letter first, then I need to write my letters and send off the rest of them.

No rain for tomorrow...but it is supposed to be cold again...that's OK...I'd rather be cold than hot, lol...

Monday, December 07, 2009

200th post

Today is my 200th post. Wish I had something really wise or cool to say, but it's really more of the same old stuff. I would like to thank the one or two people who read my blog, it is nice to know there are people who can relate to my crazy thoughts on life and all.

Today was sooo cold. And rainy. My back and leg have hurt all day. I finally took some motrin around 5 and it helped a little. I love this kind of weather, especially when I can stay inside, but my body is getting old...LOL...

Today I really didn't do much of anything. I had the baby and didn't want to take her out in this cold. I did receive a couple of gifts that I ordered through the mail, and I made a photo book of Rosalyn's first year (or 8 months, lol) for my Dad for xmas. He is so hard to buy for, I thought this would be different. I thought about doing one of his and my mom's life together, but I'm thinking it might still be too soon for that.

So tomorrow is going to be the only sunny day here this week, so I'm going to try to get a lot of my errands done tomorrow. We'll see how my back holds up...

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Chilly Sunday

It is really cold here in So. Cal. Right now it is 50 degrees and we are waiting for the rain. It is supposed to start sometime after midnight. The local news station already has us on "storm watch". LOL...

I went out today to try to finish up my shopping. I went to World Cost Market, Bed, Bath and Beyond, joann's, Rite aid and stater's. Got a couple of presents, but I'm not done yet...it's kind of annoying. I REALLY wanted to finish it up today, but oh well. Tomorrow I'm going to make a list of what I need to finish and hopefully can knock it out this week sometime.

I also need to get down to see my Dad. I wanted to go today, but he wasn't feeling very well, so we made plans for later in the week. I need to get a little house cleaning done for him and get his flannel sheets on the bed.

I'm kind of pooped...and the baby will be here first thing in the morning, so this will be a short post tonight.

update

So I've realized I'm kinda a hypocrite. Other people whose blogs I read sometimes say they will stop writing cause things are boring in their lives or they just don't have anything to say, and I will always write back that they have to keep at it, things are ok, it's theraputic, etc. I am looking at my blog, realizing that I have done the same thing. I don't write everyday cause my live REALLY is boring, I REALLY don't have anything to say, etc. LOL... I am going to make a commitment to write something everyday from now till Dec. 31. (I know...but I have to take things small...) There really is no excuse. I get on the puter everyday anyway to check my FB and myspace...

It is the 6th of Dec. and I am almost done xmas shopping. I have about 5-6 more presents to buy and I am DONE!!! I am so excited. I have never been done this early, of course I've always had to juggle work and xmas prep every year, too. This is only the 2nd xmas since I've worked (20 yrs...) that I have had off. Well, I think I'll have it off, I go back to the DR. the 15th, but I don't think he'll send me back till after the new year. That is the other motivation...if he does send me back, the biggest portion of prep will be done. It is supposed to rain most of all this week, so I figure I can finish my cards, wrap some, if not most, of the presents I have, I start cleaning the house for xmas eve.

It feels a little funny, almost child-like, to feel the Christmas spirit again. It has been 3 years since I was kind of excited for Christmas. I know 99% of that is because of Rosie. I am so thankful that she has come into my life.

OK...off to start my day...hope you all have a beautiful Sunday...

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Why I love Target...

Today I had the whole day to myself...slept a little later, went shopping, and generally just laid around the house. Nothing really exciting.

I went to Target. I LOVE Target, lol...lucky that there is a Target 10 minutes from my house, LOL. I was able to skip a trip to the grocery store, the video store, the book store and the pet store. Was able to get it all there. I bought the neccesities, laundry soap, tp, some x-mas smelling candles and trash bags. Also got stuff for the cat, kitty litter, food and a new toy. Then it was "me" shopping. I bought the dvd UP, the GLEE cd, the Hungry Girl book, a computer game, 2 pairs of really cute x-mas socks, a light-up penguin for outside, and some penguin hand towels. Oh, and 2 magazines. All for under $100.00. EVERYTHING was on sale!!! That is why I LOVE Target!!!!! Sometimes I think it would be great to work there, but then I think I'd just spend my whole check there...

I also decided 2 days ago to begin some sort of health improvement plan. Sunday I fell down in the front yard. HARD!!! I am still sore from it and I have a huge bruise on my elbow. I know it is time. I'm not doing a "diet" per say. I know enough to know that being "on a diet" won't work for me. So I am taking the best of several plans that I have used in the past and kinda putting my own plan together. More fresh fruits and veggies. Only good carbs, no more white stuff. No soda. 8 glasses of water a day. I also decided to not use artificial sweeteners. If I need sweet (like for tea) I will just use sugar, only in moderation. I go to the DR. next week so I will talk exercise then. For right now, I am just doing some walking around the house and yard and I am looking into chair exercises. That is something I was starting to explore the last time I fell off the wagon. Bottom line is I need someting doable for me, if I am gonna stick to it. Wish me luck...

Monday, November 02, 2009

bad blogger

So this is my little family as the Flintstones. I thought they look adorable!!! I can't believe that DIL got my son to wear that !!! We had a good Halloween. A decent number of kids came to the house, I only had a few pieces of candy left, and got to see my little grandprincess.

I know I've been a bad blogger of late, and I will try to do better. The big problem is that my life is really boring and I am tired of whining about my medical problems. I think the 3 people who read this blog are tired of reading about it too...

I have been babysitting lately. The grandprincess has an ear infection and daycare won't take her if she is sick, so I'm filling in. It has been fun, and since she isn't walking yet, I'm not on my feet a lot.

I also started on an art journal. I will post some pics in a day or two. I've done 3 pages so far, I've been using watercolors. I really like the act of painting, but have NO talent for it, so don't expect much, LOL. I also have a ton of ideas for scrapbooking, but I have to clean up my area a little bit...OK,OK...a LOT!!! I've been sketching out my ides so I don't forget them which is also something new for me.

Well, it's after 1 am and I'd better get myself off to bed...

Sunday, September 27, 2009

10 things about me...

The reason for keeping a journal or blog, I think, is to have a keepsake of things that were going on in your life at the time it was being written. For me it helps to put things down, where i can see them. I am a visual person, so seeing something in black and white helps me focus on the problem and come up with a solution. It also helps me to focus my thoughts. My mind is always going 1000 miles a minute with all kinds of things, and writing down the important stuff leaves more room for the not so important stuff. Another reason I like to write things down is release. Once it is on paper (or computer screen) I can let it go, to fly out into the cosmos, to do it's magic. I had the idea today to write down 10 things about me that are true today, Sept. 27, 2009. It might be kinda fun to look back in a year and see how things have changed...

  1. I have not worked in 6 months because of a disease called cellulitis. It is on my lower left leg, around my ankle. It is basically an open sore that is infected and oozy. So far nothing has really worked to cure it.
  2. I have been married for 26 years this Novemeber. I have one son and one grandbaby.
  3. Since my Mom died, Aug. 12,2008, I feel like I have no compass. I feel like I am just dangling in the wind, not knowing which way to go.
  4. I love to read, and lately I've had plenty of time. My passion right now is autobiograghies. I have read (and paid waaayy too much for) books by Kathie Lee Gifford, Tori Spelling, Marie Osmond, and Melissa Gilbert.
  5. I am really interested in starting an art journal. I'm not sure why, I don't think I have any real talent, and I have NEVER worked with paint before, but it looks really interesting, so I might take a shot at it. Who knows, I could be the next...Georgia O'Keefe...LOL...
  6. I love cats. If (or when) I live alone, I will be the lady with 100 cats. Right now, I am allowed one, cause of hubby and his aversion to cat hair, but mark my words, there will come a day when you will see me on the news crying cause my neighbors ratted me out to animal control.
  7. One day I want to own a cottage on the beach. That is my life's goal. To retire somewhere on the beach and not have to do anything but walk on the beach everyday if i want to. I love the smell, the wind, the stickiness of the salt, everything . For some reason the beach and the water rolling in and out calm me down. I always feel refreshed and at peace after.
  8. I am a clutter bug. I fight this with all my might, but the natural instinct is to have piles and piles of books, magazines, and cd's all around me. And I can tell you, it is true that if my things are in piles, I can find them quicker than if they are put away.
  9. I am actually OK with my weight. I know that for health reasons, I should lose weight, and I do try to eat right and get in some exercise, but in all honesty, if someone told me tomorrow that even at this weight, I would still live to 85 guarunteed, I would be happy with myself.
  10. I am more of a rebel than people imagine me to be. I don't wear a seatbelt. If I want to die going through my windsheild, that is my choice, not the governments. I think that some people are ment to be bigger than others. I don't believe that EVERYONE is supposed to be a size 2 and it infuriates me when it is implied. I don't believe in monagamy per say. I can't imagine going out and having an affair, but I also think that with survival rates these days, it is simply not logical for someone to be with one person forever. Finally, I do not think that Kennedy was shot by one person. I am a complete conspiracy theorist in this case.

Well, those are my 10. Hope I haven't shocked anyone too much. Try it out, sometimes you will be suprised at what comes out of you...

Thursday, September 24, 2009

HOW INSURANCE COMPANIES SUCK...

Last night I could not sleep. My leg was killing me. Not pain this time, but itching. Because it is wet, and it seems like no amount of bandages can keep it dry, it itches all the time and I am slowly going insane. So seriously...not one little bit of shut eye. I would lay there for 10-15 minutes, one time made it to a whole hour, and finally the itching would do me in, and I would have to get up. Tonight I am not even really tired. I think at 10 I'm taking some tylenol pm and hopefully I make it through project runway. If not, oh well. I'll catch it in a re-run.

So I called the insurance co. about switching Drs. They have a company policy that they do not change drs in the middle of a treatment. Even if that treatment isn't working. Even if the insured threatens malpractice. I've already been denied a new dr. I applied Tuesday. I wish all my insurance transactions were that quick. How come I have to wait 6 weeks for the well-woman refferal, but they can deny me a new dr in 1 day???? So I have decided to play thier game. My next appointment is Monday. When I go to the dr, I am going to demand he send me to the hospital for iv antibiotics. When he refuses, I'm going to go home, and then at 5 pm when urgent care opens, I'm going in. I am 99% sure THEY will send me to the emergency room. Then, all secondary care is handed out by the hospital instead of the dr. I have to wait till Monday, if i can, because the insurance co. wants to give the dr every opportunity to do the right thing. HE'S HAD SIX MONTHS!!!!! How long does he need??? To appeal the denial, it could take 60-90 days. Are you freakin serious??? And I can't figure out why I've been so depressed lately???

On a good note, I finally saw my Rosie today. I haven't seen her since Saturday. That was hard...she is sooo adorable. I know I'm biased, but she is. And now she is 6 months. I can't believe how time is flying by. I also saw my Dad. We went out to lunch. it was fun...

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

wishes...

a friend on another blog posted about wishes. http://alifeunrehearsed2.blogspot.com/ Check it out. Maybe this is what I am missing. Something to look forward to, something to aim for, something to dream about. Here are my wishes, in no paticular order:
1) Have a cottage on the beach.
2) to have one of my layouts in a magazine.
3) to have fun writing again.
4) to have my own library.
5) to have lots of pets.
6) to have more grandkids to spoil.

I like my list. Some of these things are attainable, someday.

embarrassed

That last post is soo embarrassing. I am sorry. I have so many blessings, I just don't take the time to count them each day. Things could be so much worse, and for many people are worse. I need to step back and think before I just start writing whatever comes to mind. Thank you Lori for the very kind words. I was more embarrassed this morning when I went to delete the post and realized that someone had a chance to see it first.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

why???

**This is a whiney blog...you are forewarned...**

Why are men so stupid? Why is being married so hard? Why do I have to sacrifice everything I like for the sake of the "marriage" but he doesn't have to give up anything? Why when I am sick, it's my fault, but when he's sick, I'm supposed to be nursemaid? Why am I such a doormat and why don't I stick up for myself more? Why do I let myself get to this point of frustration and not say anything? Why do I stay married if I am so miserable? Why did I think being married was so great in the first place? Why didn't I go to college and do something with my life? Why do I think it's too late?

Monday, September 14, 2009

cards and things

Some things I worked on this week:


This is the first ever card I have made. I cheated a little bit cause the white part of the card is a pre-made 4x6 notecard I found at walmart and I just added the decorations. The background paper is DCWV and it already has the adhesive on the back, I LOVE that, the accent papers are also DCWV, blossoms and butterflies colection and the butterfly I believe is KC and Co. I really liked how all the elements just came together...of course, I know I need loys of practice, but for a first attempt, I'm pretty proud of myself...
This is a layout of my Mom and me, the picture was taken on her 50th birthday, about 15 years ago. You can tell it's old, we both look like babies, LOL. It is one of the few pictures I have of us together. The paper is the new Prima, it is already sewn, and I LOVE it!! I wrote her a little note, I've been missing her a lot lately, but I WILL be alright! The roses are Martha Stewart, from walmart also.

Just a little side note here...don't be afraid of the camera. I know because I am fat, I really don't like my picture taken, but now, as I look for pictures with my loved ones, they don't exsist and that breaks my heart. In the long-run, it doesn't matter how someone looks, just that you have the memory of the time you spent together.

Monday, September 07, 2009

Time for a change??

There are things going on in my life right now that I am not happy with. The question is, what am I going to do to make it better? Once I know the answer to that question, the next question is will I be able to do what is neccessary to make that change happen?

Here's the thing...I don't want to die 20-25 years from now not having done things that I want to do. In my current situation, that is exactly what is going to happen. Not just because of my weight, let's face it, it is going to be really hard to backpack at Yosemite at 350 lb, but because of relationships that I am in at the moment.

I am really questioning whether I want to stay married or not. Don't be shocked...my marriage has been on rocky ground for a while, I just didn't want to do anything to make it all crumble down. Now, I'm thinking maybe it's time to throw that rock and see what survives the oncoming avalanche. I married very young, 18, and I am really starting to feel sufocated. I am tired of having to always put my wants and desires to the back of the table cause I have to cater to him. I know some of this is my fault. I let him boss me around for years. I didn't feel like I was good enough or smart enough to make any descision on my own, so I always deffered to him.

So here I am, not really knowing where to go next, what is the next step to take. Do I want to be alone at 44 yrs of age. Do I want to start all over again, not being in the best of health? Do I even know what it is I'm looking for?

Things to think about...

Friday, August 28, 2009

Cousins


This is my newest layout of the grandprincess and her cousins. The picture was taken when we went to see the ducks 2 weeks ago over at the park. I really love the picture, it reminds me of our kids when they were little. My cousin and I are very close. There were times in our teenage years where we were inseperable. We have done everything together. She has 2 kids, a girl and a boy and I have the one son. When they were little I made it a point to stay connected to my cousin and her family, beause someday it would be just my son, without us, his parents. Since he didn't have brothers and sisters, I wanted to make sure that he had a bond with his cousins. I think I have accomplished that goal. Now, it is the next generation of cousins. My Grandprincess is in the middle and my cousins grandprince and princess are on either side of her, kids of my cousin's daughter. (Her son hasn't had kids yet, but I've been assured they are working on it, LOL) I love seeing all these babies in the family. My other cousin also has a little girl, almost 18 months, and their sister is going to be induced tomorrow. She's having a girl. Christmas this year is gonna be GREAT!!! Of course, I wish my Mom was here to see all the babies, especially the grandprincess, but I keep reminding myself that she is our special guardian angel up in Heaven and is keeping tabs on all of us.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

only the names have been changed...

It has been brought to my attention that I should not be using my granddaughter's real name on my blog, that it could set her up for some kind of miscreant or bad episode. In all honesty, that thought had never occured to me. It really boggles my mind the world we live in sometimes, but I got the point, thank you very much...henceforth she will be known as the grandprincess.

Thanks to all my sparkfriends who stopped by my blog to look at my challenge layout, it means a lot. There are such talented people out there, sometimes I think my attempts are so sophmoric.

Today has gone by in kinda a blur...I had to get up VERY early to take hubby to work, and could not go back to sleep when I got home. Right now I'm fighting a headache, si I think I will going to bed very soon, LOL.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Monday,Monday...

This is my little princess at 5 months old. I can't believe that she is that old now. Imagine how I will feel when she is 5 years old...like an old woman, lol. We've been trying to take a picture of her on every month "birthday" because at the end of the year I am going to do a scrapbook of her first year. I didn't get into scrapbooking till a couple of years ago, so I never did all the cute baby layouts for my son. This makes up for it!!
This layout if my hubby and the princess on Father's Day. We had a little impromtu BBQ out in the backyard that day. Just some carne asada and grilled chicken and some potato salad. I just really lov this picture of the two of them. Hubby loves this little girl so much. For such a "man's man' he is such a pushover for little kids, especially cute ones like the princess. I did this layout for the spark challenge to "use an owl" in your layout. The paper is "Forest Friends" by colorbok and I LOVE it!!!
Today was pretty uneventful, I was supposed to go to the doctor, but the appointment got cancelled. I have to set up a new one. I've been thinking about re-arranging my room, so maybe I'll do that tomorrow...



Tuesday, August 18, 2009

feeding the ducks

This is my little daring, the grandprincess. We went out to see the ducks at Fairmount Park today. We went with my cousin and her daughter and 2 grankids. Her granddaughter is the oldest at 18 months and a beauty. She really got a kick out of seeing the ducks, feeding the ducks, and running after the ducks, LOL. To see more pics, click on my facebook badge.
This is the grandprincess and her Mommy getting a little too close...those ducks were hungry!!! Now this is probably gonna sound stupid, but we weren't really sure if these were ducks or geese. I am pretty sure that geese are white, but they seemed awfully big to be ducks. All in all we had a good time. As a bonus I got in some major walking, which is good.
This week is shaping up to be pretty busy...today the park, tomorrow we are going to see my Dad. (My son, the baby and me.) Then on Thursday I am going to a craft show with my cousin...more walking, and a chance to find something cute and one-of-a-kind.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

shopping, shopping, shopping...





So today I did a little shopping, both at the store and online. I love to go out and see things, pick them up, feel them, in this case, smell them. I bought this little beauty at cvs. It is essence of beauty citrus coconut mist spray. I also got the lotion. Can I tell you it smells like heaven!!! It reminds me of the smell of suntan oil I used to use as a kid trying to get a tan. (All I ever did was burn, peel, repeat, LOL) I LOVE it. When I first put it on, I expected to feel oily, that's how good it smells, LOL. Very fresh and clean. It is hard for me to but new fragrances because a lot of scents give me a headache, so I was very happy that this one didn't. It will be my new summer fragrance, even though summer is almost over.

I also bought a pad of paper. The learning-to write-cursive writing paper. I think it will look sooo cute on a scrapbook page. I must really be starting to think like a scrapbooker, LOL...also in my cart were a teether for the little grand-princess, Vanity Fair...they have a gorgeous picture of Farrah on the cover,a sunflower picture frame with a ladybug, and last, but not least, what I went there for, bandages for my leg. That's why I love cvs...they have a little bit of everything.

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I saw this on Etsy and LOVED it. It is called "Catch a Falling Star" and I think it is beautiful. I love everything about it. The colors, the stars, the simplicity. The artist had paintings and prints. I love Etsy. So many cool things that people put their heart and soul into to make this world a little more beautiful. I love to shop online cause you can find the world out there...I also like eBay a lot, same concept...and you can find one-of-a-kind items there too.
Tomorrow I go to the DR. Hopefull there will be some good news...keep your fingers crossed...

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

One year


It is so hard for me to believe that it has been a year since my Mom passed. In fact, right about now, at 8:30 pm, I got the call. I don't think that is something I will ever forget. The feeling of helplessness, the fear, the lonliness. The questions. Did she suffer? Did she know it was time? Was she ready?



The big one I can answer. She was ready. She knew that she had done her job here on earth and that it was time for her to go. I try not to think of her as leaving me, more like she had so many things she wanted to take care of, and it is easier as a guardian angel.



I went to Redondo Beach today. She loved the beach. She had moved here from Michigan in the early 1960's and one of her first stops was Huntington Beach. Later, when my Uncle lived out there, we would go a lot in the summer. A few years ago I took her to Redondo Beach and she loved it too. I hadn't realized that she didn't really like the sand, but had put up with it all those years cause she loved the water and she thought we liked the sand. I had to confess that I wasn't big on sand either. That was why I liked Redondo. It has a beautiful pier but also access to the beach if you want to get into the water.



So my son took me out there today. It was a little overcast, but a mild temp. and a nice breeze. We walked to the end of the pier and I had a nice little conversation with her. I immediately felt at peace and knew she was OK. We watched a couple of sailboats off in the distance and some of the people fishing. I wanted to get a picture of the cutest little Asian woman fishing, but she didn't really want to get her picture taken, and I wanted to respect her wishes. (But she was really cute!!)


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Friday, July 24, 2009

Friday Fill-Ins...

And...here we go!

1. Finding out I am pre-diabetic is not the end of the world.

2. Sitting here, listening to the sound of rain falling, I am daydreaming of a rainy day in Paris.

3. Really good dark chocolate tastes so good!

4. Sometimes, putting others first is a way to not have to deal with your own issues.

5. My granddaughter's smile is breathtaking, really.

6. Well, maybe there is light at the end of my tunnel.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to watching the Angel's game, tomorrow my plans include doing some scrapbooking and Sunday, I want to go see my Daddy!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

It is too hot!!!


This is Redondo Beach, California...This is where I want to be right now. The cool breeze, the beach smell, the sound of seagulls...Hopefully, in the next week or two, we can get away for the weekend or something. Riverside is just too hot right now. At 10:00 it was still 80 degrees.
Other than the heat, this week has been good. Check out my sparkblog at the side to see my diet progress. So far this week I have been very good. Except for Sunday. We will not speak of Sunday. I made a solemn promise...
Hopefully I will have some new layouts to post this week. I have all kinds of new pictures of Rosie and a couple odd-ball pics that I want to scrap.
Well, I'm off to dream about the beach...

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Is it just me...

Or is it weird that I find the story of the girl who fell into the open mahnole while texting absolutely HILARIOUS???? I mean, I'm glad she isn't seriously injured, but the picture of her just dissapearing into the ground makes me crack up.

Unfortunately, what is not so funny is the fact that her parents want to sue the city. I know that the workers should have put up the orange cones BEFORE taking the manhole cover off, but I'm thinking that due to the fact that she was immersed in her texting, and not like, PAYING ATTENTION to what she was doing, whether or not the cones were up is kinda a mute point.

I'm all for technology, I text, tweet, facebook, myspace, blog and spark almost everyday. The difference is there is a place and a time. If I am going to text, I stop, move out of the way of anybody around me, and text. Or, I wait till I'm in a safe place to text, waiting for the car to warm up, when I get home, sitting at the computer. I am wise enough to know that I can't do 2 things at once when both things need my concentration. Maybe that is the adult in me...Anyway, I AM glad that the girl wasn't hurt, and I DO think her parents are morons for sueing the city instead of having a chat with their daughter about priorities. Just my Humble Opinion...

I added the pic of the manhole cover cause I LOVE it...who would have thought that this thing would move me in such a way??

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Just looking...


I've been hanging out today, looking at different sites, catching up on blogs and things. I found this paper at 2 peas and it is soo pretty!! It is from Prima Marketing and the paper is embroidered. I absolutely LOVE it. Of course, I had to buy it. along with some flowers and some other papers. I love Prima so much. I really like working with flowers and *bling*. Must be the girl in me, LOL. This paper will be PERFECT for a page I want to do of my Mom, who passed away last year. Her Name was Rose, so it goes together nicely. I can't wait...
Now, I'm gonna get ready and go do some shopping, now that the weather has cooled down a little. I don't know what made us move to Riverside instead of towards the beach...I remember, it was the price...We couldn't afford a trailer out by the beach...Riverside is nice, just a little too close to the desert for me...
Well, let's see what great things I can find tonight...wish me luck...

Friday, July 03, 2009

It's Friday....

First, Friday fill-ins...

1. When I heard Michael Jackson had diedI was not really surprised.
2. Laughter is the best medicine.
3. It's late, but I would love to go back to school.
4. Hope always.
.5. My eyes have seen things with such beauty it is hard to comprhend.
6. Love strongly.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to spending time with my grandbaby, tomorrow my plans include watching some fireworks and Sunday, I want to sleep!

Thursday, July 02, 2009

Layouts


These are my two new layouts. Of course, they are of my beautiful granddaughter, Rosie. The first one is from April. It says "Baby Girl". That is a rub-on That I thought was soo pretty. The papers are all from DCWV pads. The 8x8 is from the "Sweet" pad which is soo cute. The plain pink under the picture already has adhesive on it...clearance at Joann's for $3.00 for a whole pad with spring colors...gotta love that!!
The second one is of Rosie sleeping, I think she looks like a little angel...Also rub-ons and Sweet paper. I really like the plaid. I like the combo of brown with the pastel colors. I liked the simplicity of them, I usually have to *fill the page* with stuff, but I liked the way these turned out.
At the DR. I learned that the infection is getting better, but VERY SLOWLY!!! So, I'm off for 2 more weeks. I also lost 3 lb. I don't know how, considering that I haven't been able to move for the last week between the leg infection and pinching the nerve in my back. Anyway...I'll take it!!

quick update

Just a quick note. Tomorrow, I go to the Doctor. I feel like the infection is getting better, just taking a long time...I will probably be off work for at least another 2 weeks. That's OK by me...I'm still getting disability, so all is good.
I will also post some layouts I did. I have wantd to work on some for a while, but my desk was a DISASTER!!! Gosh, I wish I was one of those really organized people. I spend more time cleaning and organizing than anything else!!! Before my excuse was that I was working all the time...well, can't say that anymore and things are still a mess, LOL.
That's all for now...more in the morning...
Oh, I added new music, let me know what you think...

Monday, June 29, 2009

Michael Jackson

Michael Jackson's star on the Hollywood Walk of fame surrounded by fans...
(Please...if you don't like MJ...for whatever reason...do not reply to me...now is not the time...)

We lost too many great people this week...Farrah, MJ, Ed McMahon, Fred Travelena, Billy Mays...just too weird...May they all Rest in Peace...

Thursday, June 25, 2009

saying goodbye

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Today has been a very sad day for me, and I suspect many other people. I was born in the mid sixties, so I grew up in the 70's and 80's. My childhood was filled with disco and beautiful girls on classic TV shows. It all seems kind of cheesy now, but they are the memories of my youth.

Today we lost 2 very special people. Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson. How can that be?? Farrah was 62 and Michael was 50. I thought people were supposed to be living into their 70' and 80's these days. Farrah lost her battle with cancer and Michael was lost to a heart attack. Unbelievable.

As hard as it is to lose people, and I do pray for their respective families, I also feel a great sadness that I am losing my childhood. I remember watching the Jackson 5 cartoons on Saturday mornings. I remember my friend Kathy taking me to the salon for my first *real* hair cut and style for my 8th grade graduation and asking for the "Farrah" hairstyle. I remember my cousin getting the "Off the Wall" cassette and playing it for days...over and over again. I remember watching Farrah in "The Burning Bed" and being soo impressed that this beautiful girl could act!! I especially remember "Billie Jean" being shown on mtv every morning and having to watch it before going to school.

I know God knows what he's doing, but I say cut us a break. We need some of these angels among us here to make life bareable and to make memories.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Friday Fill-ins...

And...here we go!
1. All children alarm their parents, if only because you are forever expecting the next accident to happen.
2. Show me a good loser and I will show you a person who truely has a good heart.
3. Sitting down with a good book is like eating an entire box of chocolate liqueurs at one time.
4. Too bad that all the people who know how to run the country are busy reading the latest gossip magazines and scratching their butts.
5. I have yet to hear a man ask for advice on how to combine romance and Nascar .
6. It is impossible to think of any good meal, no matter how plain or elegant, without great friends or good conversation in it.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to getting some much needed sleep, tomorrow my plans include going to see my Daddy and Sunday, I want to take my husband somewhere nice for Father's Day!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Limes


This is a little baby lime from our lime tree. We have only had the tree since Mother's Day and I was SO excited when I saw it this morning. Just a little watering and tending too and this little tree is going to reward me with sweet limeade and lime juice for cooking and smelling good. I can't wait.

Friday, June 05, 2009

Friday fill-in

And...here we go!
1. Home sweet home.
2. My favorite thing for dinner lately has been chicken breast and rice and broccoli.
3. The STUPID dog next door is always going bark! bark! bark!
4. A nice long walk should be experienced with a friend.
5. I could really use some good news.
6. When all is said and done, everything happens for a reason and I just need to figure it out.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to taking a long,hot shower, tomorrow my plans includegoing to some garage sales and Sunday, I want to see my Daddy!

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Weightloss journal

I have been on Sparkpeople.com for a couple of months now. I obviously need to lose weight and they have very good tools there. A food tracker, a fitness tracker, good recipes and support groups. I really had not taken advantage of this until about a week ago. It really opens up your eyes when you start taking responsibility for your actions. Anyway, they also have a blog there, so most of my weightloss thoughts will be there if anyone is interested. Also, one of my support groups in a scrapper's group and we a re doing a weight loss journal. This is the second page of mine. The journaling is about how I feel and look awful in this picture with my grandaughter. And how I am gonna fight my way back...(If I did this right, when you click on the title,weightloss journal, it will take you to my sparkpage...)

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Rosie and Maddie


I absolutely LOVE this picture of Rosie and Maddie. It was taken at Joanna's baby shower last weekend. (Maddie is Jo-Jo's 1st baby) It is amazing to me how much love this little girl shows Rosie. I hope they grow-up to be great friends.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Control

CONTROL:the act or power of controlling; regulation; domination or command: Who's in control here?
Just some thoughts on my struggle with weight. It is not going so well, and I need to figure out some thins in my mind before I can go forward...



Here is a neat thing called Friday Fill-Ins...Every friday (or Thursday night) there is a fill in for you to answer. I thought it was neat...

And...here we go!

1. It's cold and overcast.

2. I am learning to like tomatoes.

3. My favorite health and beauty product is covergirl highlights mascara.

4. I'd love a nice long ride.

5. Well, first of all my leg really hurts.

6. Friends; those were the cast of characters in a recent dream and it was hilarious.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to scrapbooking, tomorrow my plans include a family get together and Sunday, I want to go to the beach!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

just thoughts


This is Rosie and my neice maddie. Maddie and her mom and Grandma came over the other day to visit. She absolutely love Rosie. Calls her *Baby* and tries to hug her all the time. It is so cute. I'm gonna have to get a video of it.

I've been doing a little scrapbooking, but I feel like I need to change it up a little. I'm starting to feel like all my pages look the same. I'm gonna look at some other scrapbooker's styles and see what I can learn(Steal...haha) from them.

Tomorrow I go back to the Dr. to check out my leg. I'm thinking he'll have to continue to put me off work, since there is still infection present in the wound. I'm not really heartbroken about that, just starting to realize excactly how bad this infection was. 4 weeks of antibiotics and it is not cleared up yet. That's a little scary...

Monday, May 11, 2009

Mother's Day

I hope everyone had a good Mother's Day. I tried to keep busy and remember my mom in a positive way. She had a great sense of humor and I wanted to honor that.

We spent most of the day planting around the ole homestead. We bought 3 fruit trees, lime, orange and peach, a ton of roses, bushes and trees, and I had to get some sunflowers cause I LOVE them. My official Mother's Day present is the dolphin topiary. I know just where I want to put it in the front yard.






My son came over Saturday night and brought Rosie


We put her in her bouncer for the first time. She didn't seem too thrilled with it...All in all it was a nice weekend.

Friday, May 08, 2009

Ducks

Yesterday I went to the park to feed the ducks...I haven't done that in YEARS, Haha. My cousin Ricki, her daughter Joanna, her daughter Maddie, my DIL Kimberly, and Rosie. We ate McDonalds there and then went to feed the ducks. It was really fun. Very relaxing, except for when Maddie would go too close to the water. I really had a lot of fun just chillin...

Some of the ducks...


Ricki and Maddie feeding the ducks...


Maddie giving *baby* (Rosie) kisses...

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Back to the land of the living...

It has been over 2 months since I last wrote anything here. I decided to take a self-imposed hiatus. No blogging, no scrapbooking, no dieting. I would re-read my posts and they were extremely depressing. All the same, whining and crying cause things weren't going my way. It made me very sad. I decided I needed a break. I really did. Things have changed since I was last here. Some for the better, some for the worse. The main thing is I now feel more equiped to handle the bad with the good.


The biggest change is I am now a grandma!!! My beautiful granddaughter, Rosie, was born March 23, 2009.



She is such a joy. Her full name is Rosalyn Marie and I couldn't be happier. I already out in my order for another one, haha.

Another thing that has changed is that I have stepped down from my position at work. A couple of things lead to this decision. The biggest one was my health. The staph infection on my leg got so bad, at one point the Dr. SERIOUSLY considered cutting away 1/2 my leg. I knew that as long as I was in charge of the store, I would not get the treatment I would need. I would be worrying about what was happening while I wasn't there. The other reasons include not wanting all the responsibility anymore and needing to spend more time with my Dad and my Rosie. I don't need to be working all the time anymore. I have been on medical leave since April 14, and don't expect to go back until at least June. Thank God for disability. As of this moment I am not assigned to a store, when I go back, I'll probably work nights. I'm more of a night person anyway...

I have also done some scrapbooking in the last day or two. I had seriously lost my "mojo", but I think it's back!! Now that I have this beautiful little girl to scrap, how could it not be?


Well, I think that's enough for now. Don't want to over-do-it right off the bat. I'm happy to be back and like the new positive vibe I've got going...

Sunday, February 22, 2009






This is the layout for the sparks challenge. It is the first page of my journal and it had to be red, white, and black and say "yes, I can". I LOVE LOVE LOVE the penguin. It was on a christmas tag and I think he is totally cool!!









This is my DIL and myself after the baby shower. I think it went really well. She got a lot of stuff, and we played lots of games. We also had yummy food and a beautiful cake my neice made. About 12 people showed up, so that was good. Not too many, and not just me and her, LOL.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Sorry I haven't been around lately, I have been devoting this whole week to the baby shower I am giving my DIL today. She is due in 2 weeks. I am so excited, I can't stand it!! It's like Christmas used to feel like when I was a kid. This is the theme I'm using, I thought it was SOOO cute, even though we know it's a girl.

I woke up a little sad today cause my sister should be here with me. Kathy should be here with me. And of course, my Mom should be here. I just have to keep remembering that they are together, watching and caring for us from Heaven.

I am so behind on other projects, like the ABC one and the challenge from sparks. Hopefully I can whip out a couple of pages this weekend after the shower.

Hope you all have a great weekend...

Sunday, February 08, 2009

ABC's of Me


This is the cover of my mini book, "The ABC's of me. I am a little behind on the challenge, but I'll catch up...

This is inside, I think the purpose of doing this is to find out the "real" me...or a part of me anyway.

This is "A". I used a thickers letter and some rub ons. The pages are index file cards. We were supposed to use cards, but I've never worked with something so small, so I thought this would be OK.

For the "A" prompt the word was action, so I looked up words in the dictionary for each letter and wrote down the words I liked or identified with. Kind of corny, but I learned something new.

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

technology sucks...

Well, I was gonna post pics of some of the things I've been working on, but for some reason my computer won't recognize the digital camera. Since I am not a computer genius, I will have to wait for my son to come tomorrow and look at it.

Hope everyone is having a good week...

Monday, February 02, 2009

sick

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I haven't been around cause I have been very sick. Probably the flu...which sucks cause I got my flu shot, but whatever it was, it was brutal. Fever, aches, vomiting, the works. I missed 2 days of work, and still felt weak today when I went back.

Tomorrow I will post some stuff I've was working on before the big epidemic...hahaha

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Happy Birthday


Here we are again...another year has passed...another birthday. Today you would be 37. It's hard to believe that so much time has passed. It seemes like last week when we all came home from the wedding and I asked you to pose for that picture. It ended up being the last one taken of you. It is one of my most cherished photos. The only good thing is that this year you have plenty of company. Do you know I have only had 1 dream about you in 2 years? Last year, on your birthday, I dreamt that you were in a park and it was a big party. I knew it had to be Heaven cause Rene and Tex, Aunt Barbara, Grandma, and Bonsey were there. You looked beautiful. I miss you so much, not one single day goes by that I don't think about you, but I know you are where you're supposed to be. Doesn't mean I like it, but I accept it. This year you have enough people for poker. Just don't let Kathy play. You know it gets on your nerves when she can't figure out which hand beats what. I love you...

Monday, January 26, 2009

Frogs


This little frog was my mom's. For some reason, I don't know why, she liked to collect frogs. They were mostly in the kitchen, but there was one ot two dispersed through the house. I bought this last year at X-mas, from a craft show.
I miss the frogs.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

bits and pieces

Well, today I was off of work, and basically laid around the house. I did eat well, except for a mustard dog at lunch, but I did have diet dr. pepper, so that evens it out...(dieter's logic) I made some really good green beans for dinner, fresh and crisp. It's kinda funny cause you get used to the mushy canned stuff, you don't realize that veggies should be crisp and crunchy.

Tonight I cleaned up my scrapspace a little. Still have a couple of things to get off of the desk, but it looks so much better. I was thinking the other day that I hadn't done any scrapping in a while, well its no wonder, when you can't even see the top of the desk cause there is so much crap on it...If anyone is reading this, and you scrap, how do you organize your paper?? I have a TON of it, I am such a paper whore, and now I don't know what/how to organize it. Any suggestions would be great.

Monday, January 12, 2009

weigh in...

Well, today was weigh in. I have lost 9 lb.!! I am very, very happy with this!! I probably could have lost more, if I had been stricter on the way of eating, but let's face facts...if I know I can't eat a candy bar, I will cave and eat three...so i HAVE to know that i can eat badly once in a while. I think the key to it is portions...who would have guessed?? LOL... Sometimes we can be so dense!! Just think 20 years ago if I had figured out the portion control, how things would be different now!!!

I wanted to do dome work on the treadmill, but my knee is killing me. I think I may have to go to the doctor and have it looked at. I am soo not thrilled about that prospect. My Doctor is an idiot. He will just throw some painkillers at me and tell me to exercise. DUH!! It is hard to exercise when you feel like your knee is going to cave in. Maybe I'll just do 15 min. I can't believe I'm dissapointed not to be able to walk...How things change!!!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

lazy sunday



Today was a lazy day for me. I needed it, LOL. Work stresses me out so much, the customers, the employees, the supervisors. Moods and attitudes change on a dime. You never know what to expect.




Anyway, I slept until 10:00 this morning. You know that warm cozy feeling when you're in bed and you just don't want to mess it up? That was what I felt like today. Hubby was nice and let me sleep. I think that ultimately he knows that it is better for him to let me be...hahaha.




We took down the Christmas tree down today. Daisy was very upset. She won't climb the tree, I think she knows it's fake, but she loves to lay under it, so she was very forlorn while I was taking it down.

Then about 3 I went shopping. Money is a little tight right now, but I had to get some clothes for the soon-to-be grandbaby. Carter's was having a sale, so I got 4 outfits for like $30.00. That's a good deal!!




The shirt say "I'll always be grandma's sweetie". I love the pants...too cute. The pattern in cherries. I can't wait until March!!!

Thursday, January 08, 2009

rockin and rollin...

Well, tonight we had a typical California experience...an Earthquake. 4.5 at latest update. Centered in San Bernardino. At 7:49 pm. While Stefanie and I were having dinner at TGI Fridays. In San Bernardino. I must say that it was a little scary. It was very strong and seemed to last forever. I know that it was probably only 10-15 seconds, but it seemed like a long time. People were starting to get up to leave, but then it was over and everybody sat back down and kept eating. We are a resilient people, LOL. The news says it may be a foreshock to a bigger quake. Hopefully that won't be what my blog is about tomorrow, LOL.

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

way of life, not DIET!!!

Today is my 3rd day of the SBD. (south beach diet) I have done this before and had very good results. The hardest thing is getting past the 2 week phase one. But it is worth it cause in the end you lose all your cravings for sweets and the bad stuff!! I fell off a little today by eating cheese enchiladas for lunch, but dinner will be very light. Tomorrow will be hard too, I am going out to dinner with my friend to exchange Christmas gifts, but I will look at the menu online and pick something ahead of time. I feel really good about this and just need to get some exercise in. Next week I will puit together a schedule and plan it in.

I am very glad the holidays are over. Christmas was good. We went to my Dad's first. He didn't want all the family there, so it was just us. We opened a few presents and had dinner. It was nice and quiet. I missed My Mom, and Denise and Kathy a lot, but didn't get upset. My Mom especially, wouldn't have wanted me crying on Christmas!! After that we went to my cousin, Ricki's house. That was good too. Her 2 brothers were there and with the 2 new babies, it was loud and full of laughter like Christmas was at my Mom's house before. I was really glad I went. There was definete healing there.