Saturday, December 26, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
So, I guess I wasn't very good about blogging every day. I suck...but there are days where there is really nothing new to report, lol. I was able to scratch somethings off my to do list. I made my scrapbook that will be a present. I am officially done shopping. Hubby dragged me to Walmart on Saturday, but now I am REALLY done!! I was so proud of the fact that I hadn't gone to walmart for any of my shopping, and that's where he wants to go...everytime I drag myself there, I hate it more and more. Rude people, rude staff, things just thrown where ever, and I swear they truck in random children just to have them clog up every isle by just standing there. (Bah humbug~!!~)
Now comes the job of wrapping. I swear we said we were gonna cut back this year, but I have presents in every room of the house. And of course, I didn't go overboard with Rosie!!! Oh well. Once I start, I'll get in the spirit of it. I'm hoping that I can do the wrapping today and tomorrow, Clean on Wed., and make the tamales and bake Thursday. So, if I don't blog again till after Christmas, I am really busy...
Hope everyone has a very special Holiday!!!
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
No rain for tomorrow...but it is supposed to be cold again...that's OK...I'd rather be cold than hot, lol...
Monday, December 07, 2009
Today was sooo cold. And rainy. My back and leg have hurt all day. I finally took some motrin around 5 and it helped a little. I love this kind of weather, especially when I can stay inside, but my body is getting old...LOL...
Today I really didn't do much of anything. I had the baby and didn't want to take her out in this cold. I did receive a couple of gifts that I ordered through the mail, and I made a photo book of Rosalyn's first year (or 8 months, lol) for my Dad for xmas. He is so hard to buy for, I thought this would be different. I thought about doing one of his and my mom's life together, but I'm thinking it might still be too soon for that.
So tomorrow is going to be the only sunny day here this week, so I'm going to try to get a lot of my errands done tomorrow. We'll see how my back holds up...
Sunday, December 06, 2009
I went out today to try to finish up my shopping. I went to World Cost Market, Bed, Bath and Beyond, joann's, Rite aid and stater's. Got a couple of presents, but I'm not done yet...it's kind of annoying. I REALLY wanted to finish it up today, but oh well. Tomorrow I'm going to make a list of what I need to finish and hopefully can knock it out this week sometime.
I also need to get down to see my Dad. I wanted to go today, but he wasn't feeling very well, so we made plans for later in the week. I need to get a little house cleaning done for him and get his flannel sheets on the bed.
I'm kind of pooped...and the baby will be here first thing in the morning, so this will be a short post tonight.
It is the 6th of Dec. and I am almost done xmas shopping. I have about 5-6 more presents to buy and I am DONE!!! I am so excited. I have never been done this early, of course I've always had to juggle work and xmas prep every year, too. This is only the 2nd xmas since I've worked (20 yrs...) that I have had off. Well, I think I'll have it off, I go back to the DR. the 15th, but I don't think he'll send me back till after the new year. That is the other motivation...if he does send me back, the biggest portion of prep will be done. It is supposed to rain most of all this week, so I figure I can finish my cards, wrap some, if not most, of the presents I have, I start cleaning the house for xmas eve.
It feels a little funny, almost child-like, to feel the Christmas spirit again. It has been 3 years since I was kind of excited for Christmas. I know 99% of that is because of Rosie. I am so thankful that she has come into my life.
OK...off to start my day...hope you all have a beautiful Sunday...
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
I went to Target. I LOVE Target, lol...lucky that there is a Target 10 minutes from my house, LOL. I was able to skip a trip to the grocery store, the video store, the book store and the pet store. Was able to get it all there. I bought the neccesities, laundry soap, tp, some x-mas smelling candles and trash bags. Also got stuff for the cat, kitty litter, food and a new toy. Then it was "me" shopping. I bought the dvd UP, the GLEE cd, the Hungry Girl book, a computer game, 2 pairs of really cute x-mas socks, a light-up penguin for outside, and some penguin hand towels. Oh, and 2 magazines. All for under $100.00. EVERYTHING was on sale!!! That is why I LOVE Target!!!!! Sometimes I think it would be great to work there, but then I think I'd just spend my whole check there...
I also decided 2 days ago to begin some sort of health improvement plan. Sunday I fell down in the front yard. HARD!!! I am still sore from it and I have a huge bruise on my elbow. I know it is time. I'm not doing a "diet" per say. I know enough to know that being "on a diet" won't work for me. So I am taking the best of several plans that I have used in the past and kinda putting my own plan together. More fresh fruits and veggies. Only good carbs, no more white stuff. No soda. 8 glasses of water a day. I also decided to not use artificial sweeteners. If I need sweet (like for tea) I will just use sugar, only in moderation. I go to the DR. next week so I will talk exercise then. For right now, I am just doing some walking around the house and yard and I am looking into chair exercises. That is something I was starting to explore the last time I fell off the wagon. Bottom line is I need someting doable for me, if I am gonna stick to it. Wish me luck...
Monday, November 02, 2009
I know I've been a bad blogger of late, and I will try to do better. The big problem is that my life is really boring and I am tired of whining about my medical problems. I think the 3 people who read this blog are tired of reading about it too...
I have been babysitting lately. The grandprincess has an ear infection and daycare won't take her if she is sick, so I'm filling in. It has been fun, and since she isn't walking yet, I'm not on my feet a lot.
I also started on an art journal. I will post some pics in a day or two. I've done 3 pages so far, I've been using watercolors. I really like the act of painting, but have NO talent for it, so don't expect much, LOL. I also have a ton of ideas for scrapbooking, but I have to clean up my area a little bit...OK,OK...a LOT!!! I've been sketching out my ides so I don't forget them which is also something new for me.
Well, it's after 1 am and I'd better get myself off to bed...
Sunday, September 27, 2009
- I have not worked in 6 months because of a disease called cellulitis. It is on my lower left leg, around my ankle. It is basically an open sore that is infected and oozy. So far nothing has really worked to cure it.
- I have been married for 26 years this Novemeber. I have one son and one grandbaby.
- Since my Mom died, Aug. 12,2008, I feel like I have no compass. I feel like I am just dangling in the wind, not knowing which way to go.
- I love to read, and lately I've had plenty of time. My passion right now is autobiograghies. I have read (and paid waaayy too much for) books by Kathie Lee Gifford, Tori Spelling, Marie Osmond, and Melissa Gilbert.
- I am really interested in starting an art journal. I'm not sure why, I don't think I have any real talent, and I have NEVER worked with paint before, but it looks really interesting, so I might take a shot at it. Who knows, I could be the next...Georgia O'Keefe...LOL...
- I love cats. If (or when) I live alone, I will be the lady with 100 cats. Right now, I am allowed one, cause of hubby and his aversion to cat hair, but mark my words, there will come a day when you will see me on the news crying cause my neighbors ratted me out to animal control.
- One day I want to own a cottage on the beach. That is my life's goal. To retire somewhere on the beach and not have to do anything but walk on the beach everyday if i want to. I love the smell, the wind, the stickiness of the salt, everything . For some reason the beach and the water rolling in and out calm me down. I always feel refreshed and at peace after.
- I am a clutter bug. I fight this with all my might, but the natural instinct is to have piles and piles of books, magazines, and cd's all around me. And I can tell you, it is true that if my things are in piles, I can find them quicker than if they are put away.
- I am actually OK with my weight. I know that for health reasons, I should lose weight, and I do try to eat right and get in some exercise, but in all honesty, if someone told me tomorrow that even at this weight, I would still live to 85 guarunteed, I would be happy with myself.
- I am more of a rebel than people imagine me to be. I don't wear a seatbelt. If I want to die going through my windsheild, that is my choice, not the governments. I think that some people are ment to be bigger than others. I don't believe that EVERYONE is supposed to be a size 2 and it infuriates me when it is implied. I don't believe in monagamy per say. I can't imagine going out and having an affair, but I also think that with survival rates these days, it is simply not logical for someone to be with one person forever. Finally, I do not think that Kennedy was shot by one person. I am a complete conspiracy theorist in this case.
Well, those are my 10. Hope I haven't shocked anyone too much. Try it out, sometimes you will be suprised at what comes out of you...
Thursday, September 24, 2009
So I called the insurance co. about switching Drs. They have a company policy that they do not change drs in the middle of a treatment. Even if that treatment isn't working. Even if the insured threatens malpractice. I've already been denied a new dr. I applied Tuesday. I wish all my insurance transactions were that quick. How come I have to wait 6 weeks for the well-woman refferal, but they can deny me a new dr in 1 day???? So I have decided to play thier game. My next appointment is Monday. When I go to the dr, I am going to demand he send me to the hospital for iv antibiotics. When he refuses, I'm going to go home, and then at 5 pm when urgent care opens, I'm going in. I am 99% sure THEY will send me to the emergency room. Then, all secondary care is handed out by the hospital instead of the dr. I have to wait till Monday, if i can, because the insurance co. wants to give the dr every opportunity to do the right thing. HE'S HAD SIX MONTHS!!!!! How long does he need??? To appeal the denial, it could take 60-90 days. Are you freakin serious??? And I can't figure out why I've been so depressed lately???
On a good note, I finally saw my Rosie today. I haven't seen her since Saturday. That was hard...she is sooo adorable. I know I'm biased, but she is. And now she is 6 months. I can't believe how time is flying by. I also saw my Dad. We went out to lunch. it was fun...
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
1) Have a cottage on the beach.
2) to have one of my layouts in a magazine.
3) to have fun writing again.
4) to have my own library.
5) to have lots of pets.
6) to have more grandkids to spoil.
I like my list. Some of these things are attainable, someday.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Why are men so stupid? Why is being married so hard? Why do I have to sacrifice everything I like for the sake of the "marriage" but he doesn't have to give up anything? Why when I am sick, it's my fault, but when he's sick, I'm supposed to be nursemaid? Why am I such a doormat and why don't I stick up for myself more? Why do I let myself get to this point of frustration and not say anything? Why do I stay married if I am so miserable? Why did I think being married was so great in the first place? Why didn't I go to college and do something with my life? Why do I think it's too late?
Monday, September 14, 2009
This is a layout of my Mom and me, the picture was taken on her 50th birthday, about 15 years ago. You can tell it's old, we both look like babies, LOL. It is one of the few pictures I have of us together. The paper is the new Prima, it is already sewn, and I LOVE it!! I wrote her a little note, I've been missing her a lot lately, but I WILL be alright! The roses are Martha Stewart, from walmart also.
Monday, September 07, 2009
Here's the thing...I don't want to die 20-25 years from now not having done things that I want to do. In my current situation, that is exactly what is going to happen. Not just because of my weight, let's face it, it is going to be really hard to backpack at Yosemite at 350 lb, but because of relationships that I am in at the moment.
I am really questioning whether I want to stay married or not. Don't be shocked...my marriage has been on rocky ground for a while, I just didn't want to do anything to make it all crumble down. Now, I'm thinking maybe it's time to throw that rock and see what survives the oncoming avalanche. I married very young, 18, and I am really starting to feel sufocated. I am tired of having to always put my wants and desires to the back of the table cause I have to cater to him. I know some of this is my fault. I let him boss me around for years. I didn't feel like I was good enough or smart enough to make any descision on my own, so I always deffered to him.
So here I am, not really knowing where to go next, what is the next step to take. Do I want to be alone at 44 yrs of age. Do I want to start all over again, not being in the best of health? Do I even know what it is I'm looking for?
Things to think about...
Friday, August 28, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Thanks to all my sparkfriends who stopped by my blog to look at my challenge layout, it means a lot. There are such talented people out there, sometimes I think my attempts are so sophmoric.
Today has gone by in kinda a blur...I had to get up VERY early to take hubby to work, and could not go back to sleep when I got home. Right now I'm fighting a headache, si I think I will going to bed very soon, LOL.
Monday, August 24, 2009
This layout if my hubby and the princess on Father's Day. We had a little impromtu BBQ out in the backyard that day. Just some carne asada and grilled chicken and some potato salad. I just really lov this picture of the two of them. Hubby loves this little girl so much. For such a "man's man' he is such a pushover for little kids, especially cute ones like the princess. I did this layout for the spark challenge to "use an owl" in your layout. The paper is "Forest Friends" by colorbok and I LOVE it!!!
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
It is so hard for me to believe that it has been a year since my Mom passed. In fact, right about now, at 8:30 pm, I got the call. I don't think that is something I will ever forget. The feeling of helplessness, the fear, the lonliness. The questions. Did she suffer? Did she know it was time? Was she ready?
The big one I can answer. She was ready. She knew that she had done her job here on earth and that it was time for her to go. I try not to think of her as leaving me, more like she had so many things she wanted to take care of, and it is easier as a guardian angel.
I went to Redondo Beach today. She loved the beach. She had moved here from Michigan in the early 1960's and one of her first stops was Huntington Beach. Later, when my Uncle lived out there, we would go a lot in the summer. A few years ago I took her to Redondo Beach and she loved it too. I hadn't realized that she didn't really like the sand, but had put up with it all those years cause she loved the water and she thought we liked the sand. I had to confess that I wasn't big on sand either. That was why I liked Redondo. It has a beautiful pier but also access to the beach if you want to get into the water.
So my son took me out there today. It was a little overcast, but a mild temp. and a nice breeze. We walked to the end of the pier and I had a nice little conversation with her. I immediately felt at peace and knew she was OK. We watched a couple of sailboats off in the distance and some of the people fishing. I wanted to get a picture of the cutest little Asian woman fishing, but she didn't really want to get her picture taken, and I wanted to respect her wishes. (But she was really cute!!)
Friday, July 24, 2009
1. Finding out I am pre-diabetic is not the end of the world.
2. Sitting here, listening to the sound of rain falling, I am daydreaming of a rainy day in Paris.
3. Really good dark chocolate tastes so good!
4. Sometimes, putting others first is a way to not have to deal with your own issues.
5. My granddaughter's smile is breathtaking, really.
6. Well, maybe there is light at the end of my tunnel.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to watching the Angel's game, tomorrow my plans include doing some scrapbooking and Sunday, I want to go see my Daddy!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Unfortunately, what is not so funny is the fact that her parents want to sue the city. I know that the workers should have put up the orange cones BEFORE taking the manhole cover off, but I'm thinking that due to the fact that she was immersed in her texting, and not like, PAYING ATTENTION to what she was doing, whether or not the cones were up is kinda a mute point.
I'm all for technology, I text, tweet, facebook, myspace, blog and spark almost everyday. The difference is there is a place and a time. If I am going to text, I stop, move out of the way of anybody around me, and text. Or, I wait till I'm in a safe place to text, waiting for the car to warm up, when I get home, sitting at the computer. I am wise enough to know that I can't do 2 things at once when both things need my concentration. Maybe that is the adult in me...Anyway, I AM glad that the girl wasn't hurt, and I DO think her parents are morons for sueing the city instead of having a chat with their daughter about priorities. Just my Humble Opinion...
I added the pic of the manhole cover cause I LOVE it...who would have thought that this thing would move me in such a way??
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Friday, July 03, 2009
1. When I heard Michael Jackson had diedI was not really surprised.
2. Laughter is the best medicine.
3. It's late, but I would love to go back to school.
4. Hope always.
.5. My eyes have seen things with such beauty it is hard to comprhend.
6. Love strongly.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to spending time with my grandbaby, tomorrow my plans include watching some fireworks and Sunday, I want to sleep!
Thursday, July 02, 2009
I will also post some layouts I did. I have wantd to work on some for a while, but my desk was a DISASTER!!! Gosh, I wish I was one of those really organized people. I spend more time cleaning and organizing than anything else!!! Before my excuse was that I was working all the time...well, can't say that anymore and things are still a mess, LOL.
That's all for now...more in the morning...
Oh, I added new music, let me know what you think...
Monday, June 29, 2009
We lost too many great people this week...Farrah, MJ, Ed McMahon, Fred Travelena, Billy Mays...just too weird...May they all Rest in Peace...
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Today has been a very sad day for me, and I suspect many other people. I was born in the mid sixties, so I grew up in the 70's and 80's. My childhood was filled with disco and beautiful girls on classic TV shows. It all seems kind of cheesy now, but they are the memories of my youth.
Today we lost 2 very special people. Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson. How can that be?? Farrah was 62 and Michael was 50. I thought people were supposed to be living into their 70' and 80's these days. Farrah lost her battle with cancer and Michael was lost to a heart attack. Unbelievable.
As hard as it is to lose people, and I do pray for their respective families, I also feel a great sadness that I am losing my childhood. I remember watching the Jackson 5 cartoons on Saturday mornings. I remember my friend Kathy taking me to the salon for my first *real* hair cut and style for my 8th grade graduation and asking for the "Farrah" hairstyle. I remember my cousin getting the "Off the Wall" cassette and playing it for days...over and over again. I remember watching Farrah in "The Burning Bed" and being soo impressed that this beautiful girl could act!! I especially remember "Billie Jean" being shown on mtv every morning and having to watch it before going to school.
I know God knows what he's doing, but I say cut us a break. We need some of these angels among us here to make life bareable and to make memories.
Friday, June 19, 2009
1. All children alarm their parents, if only because you are forever expecting the next accident to happen.
2. Show me a good loser and I will show you a person who truely has a good heart.
3. Sitting down with a good book is like eating an entire box of chocolate liqueurs at one time.
4. Too bad that all the people who know how to run the country are busy reading the latest gossip magazines and scratching their butts.
5. I have yet to hear a man ask for advice on how to combine romance and Nascar .
6. It is impossible to think of any good meal, no matter how plain or elegant, without great friends or good conversation in it.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to getting some much needed sleep, tomorrow my plans include going to see my Daddy and Sunday, I want to take my husband somewhere nice for Father's Day!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Friday, June 05, 2009
1. Home sweet home.
2. My favorite thing for dinner lately has been chicken breast and rice and broccoli.
3. The STUPID dog next door is always going bark! bark! bark!
4. A nice long walk should be experienced with a friend.
5. I could really use some good news.
6. When all is said and done, everything happens for a reason and I just need to figure it out.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to taking a long,hot shower, tomorrow my plans includegoing to some garage sales and Sunday, I want to see my Daddy!
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Just some thoughts on my struggle with weight. It is not going so well, and I need to figure out some thins in my mind before I can go forward...
Here is a neat thing called Friday Fill-Ins...Every friday (or Thursday night) there is a fill in for you to answer. I thought it was neat...
And...here we go!
1. It's cold and overcast.
2. I am learning to like tomatoes.
3. My favorite health and beauty product is covergirl highlights mascara.
4. I'd love a nice long ride.
5. Well, first of all my leg really hurts.
6. Friends; those were the cast of characters in a recent dream and it was hilarious.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to scrapbooking, tomorrow my plans include a family get together and Sunday, I want to go to the beach!
Thursday, May 14, 2009
This is Rosie and my neice maddie. Maddie and her mom and Grandma came over the other day to visit. She absolutely love Rosie. Calls her *Baby* and tries to hug her all the time. It is so cute. I'm gonna have to get a video of it.
I've been doing a little scrapbooking, but I feel like I need to change it up a little. I'm starting to feel like all my pages look the same. I'm gonna look at some other scrapbooker's styles and see what I can learn(Steal...haha) from them.
Tomorrow I go back to the Dr. to check out my leg. I'm thinking he'll have to continue to put me off work, since there is still infection present in the wound. I'm not really heartbroken about that, just starting to realize excactly how bad this infection was. 4 weeks of antibiotics and it is not cleared up yet. That's a little scary...
Monday, May 11, 2009
We spent most of the day planting around the ole homestead. We bought 3 fruit trees, lime, orange and peach, a ton of roses, bushes and trees, and I had to get some sunflowers cause I LOVE them. My official Mother's Day present is the dolphin topiary. I know just where I want to put it in the front yard.
My son came over Saturday night and brought Rosie
We put her in her bouncer for the first time. She didn't seem too thrilled with it...All in all it was a nice weekend.
Friday, May 08, 2009
Some of the ducks...
Ricki and Maddie feeding the ducks...
Maddie giving *baby* (Rosie) kisses...
Thursday, May 07, 2009
She is such a joy. Her full name is Rosalyn Marie and I couldn't be happier. I already out in my order for another one, haha.
Another thing that has changed is that I have stepped down from my position at work. A couple of things lead to this decision. The biggest one was my health. The staph infection on my leg got so bad, at one point the Dr. SERIOUSLY considered cutting away 1/2 my leg. I knew that as long as I was in charge of the store, I would not get the treatment I would need. I would be worrying about what was happening while I wasn't there. The other reasons include not wanting all the responsibility anymore and needing to spend more time with my Dad and my Rosie. I don't need to be working all the time anymore. I have been on medical leave since April 14, and don't expect to go back until at least June. Thank God for disability. As of this moment I am not assigned to a store, when I go back, I'll probably work nights. I'm more of a night person anyway...
I have also done some scrapbooking in the last day or two. I had seriously lost my "mojo", but I think it's back!! Now that I have this beautiful little girl to scrap, how could it not be?
Well, I think that's enough for now. Don't want to over-do-it right off the bat. I'm happy to be back and like the new positive vibe I've got going...
Sunday, February 22, 2009
This is the layout for the sparks challenge. It is the first page of my journal and it had to be red, white, and black and say "yes, I can". I LOVE LOVE LOVE the penguin. It was on a christmas tag and I think he is totally cool!!
This is my DIL and myself after the baby shower. I think it went really well. She got a lot of stuff, and we played lots of games. We also had yummy food and a beautiful cake my neice made. About 12 people showed up, so that was good. Not too many, and not just me and her, LOL.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
I woke up a little sad today cause my sister should be here with me. Kathy should be here with me. And of course, my Mom should be here. I just have to keep remembering that they are together, watching and caring for us from Heaven.
I am so behind on other projects, like the ABC one and the challenge from sparks. Hopefully I can whip out a couple of pages this weekend after the shower.
Hope you all have a great weekend...
Sunday, February 08, 2009
This is the cover of my mini book, "The ABC's of me. I am a little behind on the challenge, but I'll catch up...
This is inside, I think the purpose of doing this is to find out the "real" me...or a part of me anyway.
This is "A". I used a thickers letter and some rub ons. The pages are index file cards. We were supposed to use cards, but I've never worked with something so small, so I thought this would be OK.
For the "A" prompt the word was action, so I looked up words in the dictionary for each letter and wrote down the words I liked or identified with. Kind of corny, but I learned something new.
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Hope everyone is having a good week...
Monday, February 02, 2009
I haven't been around cause I have been very sick. Probably the flu...which sucks cause I got my flu shot, but whatever it was, it was brutal. Fever, aches, vomiting, the works. I missed 2 days of work, and still felt weak today when I went back.
Tomorrow I will post some stuff I've was working on before the big epidemic...hahaha
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Tonight I cleaned up my scrapspace a little. Still have a couple of things to get off of the desk, but it looks so much better. I was thinking the other day that I hadn't done any scrapping in a while, well its no wonder, when you can't even see the top of the desk cause there is so much crap on it...If anyone is reading this, and you scrap, how do you organize your paper?? I have a TON of it, I am such a paper whore, and now I don't know what/how to organize it. Any suggestions would be great.
Monday, January 12, 2009
I wanted to do dome work on the treadmill, but my knee is killing me. I think I may have to go to the doctor and have it looked at. I am soo not thrilled about that prospect. My Doctor is an idiot. He will just throw some painkillers at me and tell me to exercise. DUH!! It is hard to exercise when you feel like your knee is going to cave in. Maybe I'll just do 15 min. I can't believe I'm dissapointed not to be able to walk...How things change!!!
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Then about 3 I went shopping. Money is a little tight right now, but I had to get some clothes for the soon-to-be grandbaby. Carter's was having a sale, so I got 4 outfits for like $30.00. That's a good deal!!
The shirt say "I'll always be grandma's sweetie". I love the pants...too cute. The pattern in cherries. I can't wait until March!!!