Thursday, August 30, 2007

how much?!?!?!

OK. I will start this off by saying that this blog is not for them faint of heart. I am going to be mean and nasty and whiney, so you are forwarned................................................

First off, I AM FREAKIN HOT!!!!!! Our air conditioner has broken down, I am off work, and it is going to be 106 today. The house feels like it is 206. I know that is impossible, but that is how it feels. I am sweating just sitting here typing. I have every fan in the house going, just to circulate the hot air. Now on the news they are saying that we may have a stage 2 energy event which means they start shutting off power. I love California.

I go to the DR. this morning. It was not good news. I knew this before I went, but had talked myself into thinking he would ignore my weight and focus on other things. Silly, silly me. Why do I forget that EVERYTHING else that is wrong with me goes back to my weight??? Lose some weight and I could help fix: my high blood pressure, my borderline diabetes, the cellulitis in my leg that is flaring up, the fact that my periods are becoming increasingly irregular, the heat rash I have on one side of my neck, and the fact that I feel like shooting someone in a white labcoat. I have gained 15 lb. 15. I now weigh as much as a baby hippo. I have noone to blame but myself. For whatever reason I can not find the strenghth it takes to get serious about my eating plan. I am a failure.

Then I come home to discover I have a serious case of the runs and I started my period, 2 weeks early. I kinda wish this had happened this morning, might have made a difference on the scale, LOL. So all the errands I was going to run, in my air conditioned car, have been put off. I can only go 30 minutes or so without a bathroom run. I am drinking lots of water, but am really wanting coke.

So, I am fat, hot, tired and sick. Won't hubby be in for a surprise tonight.
(The pic is from I can has a cheeseburger?)

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

sisters


This is the layout I worked on last night. This picture of Denise and I was taken at our Grandmother's house, probably at Easter, given the flowers. I was 8 or 9 and Denise was 2 or 3. I really like the paper, but sometimes I think the background is too busy.
I did leave work early today, a little family emergency. I really didn't want to be there any way. I am really getting burnt out there.
I have some tomatoes and zuchini left over from the farmer's market, I have got to think of something good for dinner. Maybe some kind of salad. I don't know, I'll think on it.
OK, enough randomness.

Monday, August 27, 2007

new layouts


These are my newest layouts. My friend went to Disney World in Orlando and brought me back these pics. Aren't they cute? The Princesses cause I like Cinderella and Denise loved Snow White, and Pooh and Tigger cause I like them. I'm actually happy with how these turned out. (Usually I'm not.)

I was thinking today I would love to have a job doing something I like to do. I spent all day looking forward till I could come home and finish this layout. I couldn't finish it last night cause I could not (can not) for the life of me, figure out how to use the Disney font I downloaded. It has dissapeared into the inner workings of my computer, never to be seen again. I downloaded it, I looked at it in it's file, then I lost it. No idea where it got cubbied into. So finally I just printed out my title in this wonderful font. It was either that, or buy a new computer as this one was going out the window.

Eating today was Ok in the sense that I did not eat. A bran muffin for Breakfast, nothing for lunch, it got left behind this morning as I ran out the door, and 2 ww tortilla wraps made with...turkey bologna. I know, I know, too exciting. I was dead tired and did not want to cook cause then I'd have to clean.

Now I'm off to do another layout. I am inspired...

Friday, August 17, 2007

Farmer's Market



This morning I got up and went to the local Farmer's Market. Since I usually work Friday mornings, this was something I was looking forward to doing. Here are some pictures of some of my loot. I love the mexican zucchinis, they are great steamed whole and hubby loves jalapenos. I am such a bread junkie, and this woman makes every kind of bread imaginable sugar free. This is an 11 grain, sugar free apple cinnamon bread. YUMMY!! Of course I had to get a tub of kalamata olives. This man of greek decsent brines them himself in white wine vinegar. They are sooo good. I also get some beautiful tomatoes and sunflowers, but the battery went out on my camera.
I also got in some walking, which is good, although by 9:30 am it was 92 degrees out. (UUGGHH) I think I will make it a mission to check out the Thursday night farmer's market in Redlands next week. I really like the idea of fresh fruit and veggies, and at night it would be a lot cooler. LOL.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

vacation

I am off of work for the next 4 days!!!! I am soooo happy!!! I don't really have anything special planned, lunch with Ryan tomorrow, dinner with my Mom and Kathy on Friday, and the rest of the time to lay around. Definetely want to get some reading done, I have the new Ann Rule book to get started, and want to do some scrapbooking.

I am so excited. No supervisors, no lower management asking stupid questions, no worries about someone not showing up for their shift, no worrying about wether they went over in hours, NOTHING!!!!!!

I will also be concentrating on my eating. 5 small meals a day, no starches, no sugar, more fruits and veggies. I am hoping with me home for 4 days, I can get rid of the cravings for the bad stuff before I have to go back to work.

Monday, August 13, 2007

DENISE


I know I've been MIA this week, things at work have been crazy!! People quitting, people getting sick and hurt, Things just a mess in general. I have worked 3 6-day work weeks, and I am exhausted.

I also have been thinking a lot of Denise lately and I don't usually post after that. I don't want this to become a "lets feel sorry for me, my sister passed away" blog. I just really miss her. Really. You never really realize how special someone is till you lose them. I try to go on, to not be mired down in my sadness, and usually do OK. This last week though, was rough. No paticular reason, just thought about her a lot. Probably was because of working so much I had to cancel on my parents twice, and I felt very guilty about that. Very soon they won't be around and I will hate myself for all the times I put work ahead of them. At least before, Denise was around, there, to be with them so they didn't miss me as much.

This page is the last page in a scrapbook I did for my Mom for her birthday. (You can see the whole book on webshots.) She was so many things to so many of us here left behind.

(Needless to say my eating has been off the charts. I really really hate that emotional eating thing I've got going on. I will do better this week. There is no more candy in the house!!)

Thursday, August 02, 2007

cats



I found this site thru another blogger and I LOVE it!! I have sat and laughed for 3 days now, going over the pictures. I love cats, they are so silly, so serious, and so private, but the cutest things in the world, so this site really appeals to me. I hope everyone else enjoys it too.